90. Relevations & Symbols

Random: I had a amazing dream last night and when I woke up I decided to equate Desmond & Kelvin together. HAHA! “Be the woman I should be huh?”

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Was reading the last chapter of the bible, relevations, in the office on a Saturday morning. what is hard to digest are the symbols and numbers they use to respresent people, the serpent, things and even Christ. As I was reading , I shudder at the presence of wormwood, depicted as calamity & sorrow. The symbolism of the number 7. The apostle John’s letters to the 7 churches of Asia Minor.

What is to come? Will we put down our indifference & loveless heart to repent? Pray I have the strength & heart like the Church of Philadephia.

I definitely felt challenged reading the last chapter & study notes. Growing with His Word is so comforting (:

89. DMS

I thought I locked those memories in a box and threw away the key. I just wanna say this to you Kelvin, “You still look as gorgeous as ever and your smile still reminds me to strive to be the woman I should be.”

I’m glad you’ve abandoned your floppy ben adam’s hairstyle over the years. You will always look hunky to me =) Thank you for being in my motivation circle – even tho’ you never knew you played such an important role in my life.

I bet I’d laugh my head off if I see one of our old spsu photos but that will definitely bring back sweet GL memories =)

88. Agradecido (Thankful)

Dear God, with Your grace and my friends’ constant prayers, I’ve definitely came a long way. Feel so much lighter now. =D I stumbled upon something (ive deleted it) in my SD card, I suppose I saved it while I was traveling. During my last days in Cambodia, I was sitting alone in front on the hostel’s bar overwhelmed by sadness. Am baring my heart and sharing this with You – I am never strong, I am always in need of Your wisdom and grace, Your protection and Your guidance and power to resist temptation.

I will learn that for some, there can be no love or of any sort. For they do not have us in their hearts. Come end of 2009, there will be another surprise. It will determine how much of  “alaska” is left. Shd the promise not be delivered, I will give it up and they shall be lost forever. Will never ask for it anymore. Hate it that it has to sound like a business proposition. But its the truth and it is what I have to accept. Hence for now, I ask for patience and peace in my heart.

come end 2009. 2010 will be another new beginning! New resolutions to make! November is coming coming coming! YAY!

8*. Something Random

I sat down on my bed last night and thought deep.

If God wants me to serve him with a single heart, could I give everything up?

87. There are…

veracruzian shore

There are things I wished I did but I cant now because I don’t have the power to turn back time.

There are friends whom had to say goodbye and perhaps never to see them again anymore. I do not know how to contact them even tho’ I wanted sooooo much to.

There are times when my eyes want to capture those very moments and burn them to memory. sadly, those memories become colourless and fuzzy as time goes by.

There are people whom I need to forgive to move on.

There are tears I will cry when I miss you.

There are music which will remind me of everything but will only leave me in sorrow.

There are holidays when I used to spend with a loved one but he will no longer stand beside me anymore.

There are days when I wished I would be able to runaway from here.

There are smells which still make my head turn and leaving me to wonder who wore that cologne before.

There are arms whose hugs I wished lingered longer.

There are words i wished  you would whisper once more but you won’t tell me to my face.

There are prayers I pray so fervently every night yet I know God has His plans.

There are moments when I asked myself: what on earth am I here for? But I hear no answer.

There are lessons in life I must learn in order to understand why it happened.

There is work I must finish now before I proceed with another.

There is a love people tell me it exist but I don’t know whether I believe them anymore.

There are nights I will write things like these and forget abt them later.

86. Quesadillas con pollo y guacamole anyone???

The day I decided that I have to make chicken quesadillas and guacamole, I threw a little dinner for my girl friends the Mexican Way! In conjunction with The Independence Day of Mexico (16th September), it would be nice for us to do bible study with a little joyous celebration. Everyone can tell I still adore the country very much. =D

Something to share – A tricky avocado taught me that I don’t know the things I ought to know. must learn. Disappointed that my guacamole did not turn out the way it should be. will try again. I was overjoyed that my friends liked the quesadillas I made – much credit goes to Chef Armando =D I shall now be known as Little Miss Quesadilla (hahaha) *winks*

the invitation

Han & Ning preparing the salad!

Helen trying to bite off the cork

Chef Alaska

limons

Chicken quesadillas con guacamole

My friends love Mexico too! - Shuang Han

My friends love Mexico too! - Shuang Ning

My friends love Mexico too! - Helen

y yo! te kiero mucho Mexico! *smooches*

Happy Birthday Mexico!